Broken Heart Inside Me

2010-10-08T02:01:00.002+08:00

heyhey is been so long ii haven come in here post...

anyway is a short short post....

FINALLY I'M A FREE MAN!!!

ORD LOH!!!

alright... my darling is sleeping on my bed so guess i better dun disturb her...
nowadays she really very tired...

wake up at 4am den must reach MBS at 7am to start work den end work at 5 tp 6pm...
see her like tat i also heart pain guess ii will sleep outside later...
anyway love you my darling....

MUACKIS

byebye...

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wicky

2010-07-25T01:42:00.003+08:00

REWIND BACK TO 2days AGO!!!
<<<---REWIND

ok 2days ago, almost got into DB WTF rite!
thanks to BDS DERRICK, NSMEN HO and Kang MTLine Peeps...
BDS allow them to sit infront of the mini bus, den people complain me KNN!...
Luckily, never tio DB, thanks to Baby and Alex Pray for me... thanks GOD too...
Just hope one day god will make my dear believe in him... but don't when will come...

OK! GOOD NEWS IS......
DARLING PASS HER FTT SMART RITE!
I ALSO PASS MY RTT WAH LAN LEH NO MORE TEST LOH!...
NOW WAITING FOR MY LESSON TO PASS DEN TP!
WAHAHAHA...

LAW, YOU ALSO JIAYOU WAHAHA...
now the RTT very easy, because got lesson before test...
so dun worry too much...

ok... recently things ain't going too well between me and baby
having hard times between us but son will work out after all shit and NS...
BUT I BELIEVE, NO MATTER HOW HARD LIFE WILL BE SHE WILL BE THERE FOR ME...

TODAY WENT ARCHERY WITH DARLING... PHOTOS WILL BE UP LOAD SOON
we have fun but also very tired... so will rest early....

will post until here....

NITEZ...

P.S. nth much to post just to waste time...

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Wicky

2010-07-18T20:01:00.002+08:00

WHAT A BORING SUNDAY!
SUPER BORED UNTIL I'M SO LOST!

last night quarrel with baby, but everything was back to normal.
maybe I should learn to tell her how I feel, how I done my stuff.
hope this kinda won't happen again...

really happy last night she come my camp and find me...
we smoke, drink tea, talk and sleep overnight together in the van...
really cool because she is the first gal who do this with me...

JUST REALLY WONDERFUL NIGHT I EVER HAD!
BECAUSE THIS IS THE FIRST TIME WE DO THIS TOGETHER...
IS HER FIRST AND MINE TOO! COOL RIGHT!

after not long later she wait for me to book out and go home together.
is so sweet and this kinda of moment is hardly can find and have...

few hrs later, we sleep at my place den wake up at 12noon shower, go eat den sent to SSDC...
was raining like hell but we still manage to reach there...
after sending her to SSDC, I went back to look for Mike at his guitar shop...
his shop changes lots den before, more different brand of guitars...
help him and Andrew to do things because I really wanna lent from them...
their my friend and they really treat me like friend... unlike my past friends...
Andrew treat me drink and teach me how to clean the neck flat of the guitar...

not long later went back around 1430 went back SSDC to fetch baby from driving lesson...
she gt 14point for assessment not bad CLAP CLAP! muackiz

den go back to my place again to rest for awhile den sent her home le...
went to walk walk but find it kinda boring leh dunno what is missing...
so I went home...

will post until here...

P.S. Nowadays really BORED dunno wanna do wad..

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Wicky

2010-07-16T12:25:00.002+08:00

ALRIGHT MR BIG SHOT WICKY IS BACK ON AIR!

OK listen peeps!
here is wad I gonna tell you all!

I HATE JOHAN! I REALLY HATE HIM!
HIS A DEVIL MOTHER FUCKER!
SO I HATE HIM! WOOOHOOO~

nowadays life is boring like hell...
games makes you gone insane...
food I have been eating gone tasteless...
friend's are leaving and gone like before...
I'm still the same old me with diff hair style...
this what I'm Gonna Say "SUCK ON THIS"

ALRIGHT 5.55pm going for my bike practical lesson
all I have to do is to do will and go for next stage
same goes to baby...

yesterday Johan scold me for nothing...
JUST WONDERING WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THIS BLACK ASS
trying to act? showing off ur power as a 2nd sgt? let me tell you... you can suckmy balls man!
LOLS! LMAO! ROFL!

DUTY STILL NOT BAD SPIN MY NECK THANKS TO MY FUCK FRIEND FOR GRABBING ME OUT OF MY VAN! TSK!

ok i got nth to share already... will stop here

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Wicky

2010-07-14T11:54:00.002+08:00

MADNESS, ANGRYNESS and CRAZINESS...

Firstly, I have donate 12 bucks for SAF day for no reason... min 12bucks WTF rite!
WE ARE NSF SO BROKE ALREADY STILL MUST DO THIS KINDA OF SHIT...
nvm second donation min 10bucks WTF again for dunno wad RSAF charity min 10bucks
FUCK YOU LA... TOTAL 22bucks!

nvm this morning there is this fucking RP ASK MP to stop me and fold my long 4 to smart 4!
chao chee bye!... Got problem talk face to face like a man! Kainina eh ar! SO GUAI LAN FOR FUCK?!

HUH?! FUCKING MOTHER FUCKER YOU!
BETTER ORD EARLY DEN IF NOT YOU DIE!

Recently lots of mother fucker in town better watch out for our ass if not will get kick...

OH YA! one more thing
THIS IS A MESSAGE TO NICOLE, WYNN and their friends...

you peeps are childish lor, ask me go slack den find trouble outside causeway
Nicole, you think you are so cool and finding problem together with all your ah lian friends?
I'm trying to save your god damn bloody ass out of trouble, you think shouting at the boy will solve the problem? let me tell you lor...
your are just making things worse, throwing away your face, getting your friends into trouble and bring trouble to me...
shouted at me with ur bloody friends Wynn is ok for once 2nd time you guys said I'm Kaypo...
den ask me wad is my problem? Am should be the person asking you what is your fucking problem... ask me come out still do this kind of fucking childish stuff...
if you so ZAI stay and dun run when the blue boys are here. WHY RUN? izzit you humji? or izzit you wanna tell how powerful you are in CAUSEWAY?

Let me fucking tell you, you are just a pieces of crap to me... dare to yell at me then stay when I ask people come down find trouble... why wanna run?
fucking hell wanna play den play harder dun half way run away...
you dun let me see you and ur fucking friend Wynn... if not you all will be sorry...

OKAY...
P.S. GONNA STOP HERE GOING TO MEET DARLING!

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Wicky

2010-07-12T10:36:00.003+08:00

WASSUP EVERYBODY!

FINALLY book out from camp wooohooo~!
miss my darling so much you all know, you all know?!...
ok guess what, MY CLASS 3 License Is Ready!
They Will Be SENDING IT TO ME SOON MUAWAHAHA !
THIS GONNA BE SO GREAT! SO FUCKING GREAT!

last night I receive a message from J.P.
she sms me and apologize for what she did, that's weird who is the person who told her about everything?
just wondering izzit Ben, My Darling or Shawn? really confusing... but wadeva, she already apologize so just forget about what have happen in the past...

last but not least, my friend bet world cup now lose like shit almost around 1.8k now, dun even have money to eat...
last night just return him 10 bucks still owe him 5...
dunno why people like to gamble and betting so much is that fun?
Dear Daddy and Mommy please, stop buying 4D and toto...
want money dun bet on this kinda thing I can give you all money if you two just need money...
although is not much, just tell me... I will give it to you...

sigh nothing much to say already...
P.S. Baby Come Home Soon I'm Missing You!

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Wicky

2010-07-11T02:17:00.002+08:00

What is the next things in life we have to face?

Firstly, have a long chat with darling under her block we were smoking and talk about our parents and family...

Knowing lots of things gonna happen soon, but dunno which date and day will come.
feeling one of my family may just gone without informing each other...
Life is unfair and is always unfair we can't change the things we are going through, but we can treasure what we having now...

Today, I maybe alive but hrs later I maybe dead so, I have said that I treasure what I having with right now instead of regret...

Today, went to town with Darling, Desmond and his girlfriend...
we meet up just to spent sometime together and enjoying ourselves...
Eat Botak Jones, Shopping ETC ETC not long later after out dinner we wanted to catch a movie...
9 Temple.... went to 3 places to find slot for the 4 of us in the end all too late or dun have...
but is ok, decided to slack around...

Desmond and his girlfriend bring us to J Cube which use to call PC Bunk... Saw all youngsters,
wasting their time, gangster looking for troubles & girls act like crazy etc etc...
after not long awhile darling and I went up smoking, Desmond and his girlfriend decided to go home first... so we are going home too...

Bus not long, people are not pack so is great.
stop at panjang and smoke again, den take 170 home...
darling and I went to my place to watch movie instead...
having a great time together hope time just stop and dun move at all...
can't help myself kissing her lips, can't help myself hugging her all just can't...
wanted her to stay over at my place and sleep with me and wake next day saw her there too...
darling I really miss you can we do this all the time?

ok guess I'm Sleepy will stop here NITES!

P.S. LIFE ARE GREAT WITH COLORS AS LONG AS SHIT DUN HAPPENS!

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wicky

2010-07-10T12:02:00.004+08:00

hey everybody is sat in the morning so where are you peeps planing to go?
Do you know we should we go? there are no place and fun in Singapore sigh...
no plans and idea where to go but only can pray that we can go anywhere have fun....

there are something running in my mind...
last night was having my duty, went out to buy chicken rice after checking arms.
saw a mother and 2 kids walk pass me...(child 1's said) mommy, I'm Stress (in chinese)
(child 2) playing with toy holding on her hand... (Mommy's reply) stress is what you give yourself (in chinese). (Child 1's reply) I have lots of homework...

some thoughts came into my mind, why are we so stress about?
because we have to work all the time? searching for what we want in life?
keep doing things for the sake of doing it?
Are those things really so stress? YES, it is but when you think about it, if we are not doing anything will we be so stress? the answer is a YES too...
because we have to use our brain to think, wad are going to do next?
Too my personal thinking, wadeva we doing things or not we will still be stress because we have to use our brain to think...

after a few walk I past by a shop which have family photos taking, wedding, etc etc..
so envy the family photo, I wish I have a family photo put on the wall, every
time I came home can take a look at it, friends and family will take at it, see how my family is... so sweet and warming family we are...
this is what I'm gonna do, I gonna make this house like a family again. I know I can do it...

Prefect Family, Perfect Vacation, Perfect Night, Prefect Body, Perfect Life and also a Perfect Lie...

time pass real fast, I'm Gonna do something make Life Great and Unforgettable when I'm Still Young and Healthy...
guess I'm Gonna Stop Here...

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Wicky

2010-07-09T01:48:00.002+08:00

HEY WASSUP READERS!

alright, peeps here I'm gonna share some shit stuff here again...
Night Duty, still not bad my BDS, is a nice person, spare me cig, drive out buy chicken rice... etc etc
His name is Jim, his girlfriend also same school as my girlfriend so cool right!
haha world are small...
really enjoying my duty... 3mths more I'm out of CAMP! WAHAHA!!!
FREEDOM! FREEDOM!! FREEDOM!!!
IS CALLING MY NAME! SWEET!

ok after work went home to blog and use msn but IN THE END, internet was down tot daddy forget to paid bill...
but is ok manage to kill time, i Played The Sims Hot Date!
after awhile went to meet my gf.... we went to to watch movie Repo Men at CWP is a stupid movie trust me!

after our movie baby and I went back to my place, was tryng to fix my internet but still cannot make it so I called starhub... waited so bloody long In The End it was my router give me problem WTF RiGHT! got so pissed off with lots of thing nowadays minor or major... dunno wad the fuck is wrong with myself...

THINGS DUN GO THE WAY I WANTED TO BE!
I FEEL LIKE FUCKING SCREAMING!
I FEEL LIKE THROWING AND SMASHING ALL THE THINGS!
I FEEL LIKE HURTING AND CRYING OUT LOUD!
I FEEL LIKE MAKING LOTS OF LOTS OF NOISE!
I JUST WANNA FUCKING BE MAD!
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?!
FUCKING FUCK HATE THIS FUCK FEELING MOTHER FUCKER! FUCK!

P.S... something is wrong with me, I just can't fix it myself...

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Wicky

2010-07-07T13:28:00.002+08:00

TONY HAWK...

this video remind me of my childhood...
started skateboarding because of the game Tony Hawk Pro Skater (THPS)
Best Video In The Game for My Own Opinion

2010-07-07T10:14:00.003+08:00

FUCK THE PEOPLE WE DON'T LIKE!
FUCK THE PEOPLE WHO STEAL YOUR LIFE!
FUCK THE PEOPLE WHO MAKE YOUR LIFE LIKE HELL!
FUCK THE PEOPLE WHO DON'T GIVE A SHIT SO FUCK THEM HARD!
MAKE THEIR LIFE LIKE LIVING HELL, BECAUSE WE ROCKERS & SKATEBOARDER
DON'T HAVE TO GIVE A FUCK ABOUT WHAT THEIR THINKING ABOUT! WE ROCKS!
SO JUST ROCK ON MOTHER FUCKERS!

OK! here is what I'm gonna share today...
yesterday went back to camp for some talk but in the end was get scolding almost got charged...
because my stupid bus came late, den write statement dumb rite?
NEVER MIND! I CAN FORGET ABOUT IT...

HAPPY MOMENT ALWAYS BRIGHTEN OUR DAY RITE?
so at night went to watch Twilight Saga Eclipse with my darling sweet rite?
our movie started popcorn and drinks haven sent in, is the second time this shit happens...
NEVER MIND! I CAN FORGET ABOUT IT... (anyway movie is nice!)

after movie went home with darling...
everything is good I guess?
YUP IS DAMN GOOD!

so here comes the best part....
went to my girlfriend's house to sleep WOOHOO
sleep beside her, wake up at 0520 to hide because her brother will come into the room and change...
0630, everyone is out den continue sleeping till 0730...
wake shower den eat biscuits and drink milo 0900 sent to school...
IN THE END HAVE WALK HOME BECAUSE MY DOG EZ LINK CARD INVALID FUCK!

P.S 1630 have to be in dog camp!

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Wicky

2010-07-06T09:50:00.002+08:00

Worse Day of My LIFE!

just after my duty off den receive a message from my Warren Officer TSK!

Hi gd morning guys, today comd SBAB will be talking to all GLLO MTLO personnel, attendance is compulsary, all bk in by 1200 to 1300hrs. For all the attached operators to SQNs we'll keep u inform later the time & place & u rsuppose to be present too. Regards...

IS MY BLOODY HELL OFF DAY!
ii WANNA GO OUT LATER!
STILL MUST ATTEND STUPID TALK!
TOTALLY WASTE OF TIME!
3MTHS TO ORD!
WHY CAN'T JUST GIVE ME BLOOD PEACES?!

OK FINISH SHOWING ATTITUDE ALREADY!

P.S my brain is thinking about my personal stuff...

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Wicky

2010-07-04T21:43:00.002+08:00

WOW FINALLY I LOST MY PASSWORD FOR SO LONG NOW I'M BACK!

is been so long my blog are dead now I'm back so wad should ii post?
I'm lost of track and stuff tat needed to posted to let my reader to read...

OK LET'S TALK ABOUT MY LIFE...
full of ups and downs during on relationship, but we have to give in sometimes...
things dun always go the same we wanted, but what I'm concerning about is...

WHAT AM I GONNA DO AFTER ORD! HEAD BIG BIG

Should I go back to study or just keep working? Sigh I really dunno...
anyway 3mths to ORD! WOOHOO!

Oh ya, I have went back to skateboarding but most of my tricks are gone...
Thanks To Amanda Yaw! CLAP CLAP!

It took me lots of time to join skate competition (Skate For Unity)
missed out 2nd Skate Comp (Vans Skateboarding Day ARGH!)
but all i wanted to thanks is my GF she give me lots of support to skate again

P.S sry today did not accompany you but I still Love You!

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Wicky!

2010-02-25T23:21:00.002+08:00

yes finally last day she is coming back from thai...

gonna plan something to welcome her back a romantic way =)
so she will noe how much she meant to me only me...
tomorrow baby you are back what is the first thing you wanna see and know?

wicky...nothing to post le sleepy and tired...

2010-02-25T00:48:00.002+08:00

so bored ii dunno why ii keep tears rolling off my face today...

things are still the same but ii dun think ii can meet baobei tis sat sry girl...
ii nvr fail to miss you everyday, every sec, every min and every hrs...
today she chat with me online something she said really breaks my heart...
i'm not gonna said or type it out...
sigh den ii keep having nightmare...
feel like i'm all alone...
no matter how tired ii am ii still can't sleep...
sigh...

found a song is nice listen already ii sob more lols...
think my brain abit not right...

wicky...i'm falling apart ii gonna drop dead any moment...

2010-02-23T00:18:00.002+08:00

WTF... Finally My Come Can Works LOLS

ok fast game!
Pass few days com spoil finally is working again
CNY did not go take ang bao... but went to ben's house for steamboat and go out with him and JP...

ok....
nowadays alot of problem... almost get DB becoz my phone did not ring and is SPOIL!
baby went thailand with her friends sigh really worry about her give me call last night den to night nvr call me dunno she is ok or not....
my heart is missing her till max of the max cans!... hmmm baby give me a call ok! ii miss you lots

wicky...weird feeling i'm having!

2010-02-22T01:59:00.000+08:00

Hi!! :)

....

Bye~ :X

2010-02-20T16:53:00.003+08:00

WOW!!! THIS BLOG IS ROTTING RIGHT NOW!!!

you know this is who ma??? your lao bei... BENJAMIN!!! =DD

don't even know what ivan doing now o.O?
post soon<----- ivan post now me!! but hope he can post ba!!
Bye Pees!

2010-02-13T12:05:00.002+08:00

is been a long time...

heyhey, sorry for not posting have been really busy with my own thingy... ok let's share!
past few days may not be so good but I still manage to move on with blood sucking life in camp.

OK!
last night is my best valentines night ever! when to ASTONS to have steak with my darling.
we also have red wine to come with it everything is just so perfect and memorable rite!
ii said before ii want a "memorable" valentines night with her and ii really did it!
after eating we went for shopping at Plaza Singapura went there to look for a watch but all too ex...
saw a watch with really nice is black and stainless steel which cos more den 200 bucks ii guess...
after tat we walk around there we saw lots of funny and cute things.
few hrs later after our shopping we went to starbucks to get a cup of coffee and cake to enjoy ourselves...

we have been taking lots of photos and will be post to share with everyone here remember to tag or comment...

after our coffee we took bus 190 to panjang den change to 178 back woodlands =D
baobei camp over to my place to accompany me haha but sadly ii fall asleep...

wicky...baobei thanks for accompanying me and a memorable valentines day with me...

2010-02-08T23:59:00.002+08:00

how's life everything good or bad?

heyhey wicky is here to post again...

today went to surprise baobei outside her house...
bring her to my place and rest awhile den ii wake up go see doctor...
after seeing doctor get 2days MC den cab to camp to return mini bus key den cab home...
while on my way home in the cab, the cabby and ii almost lost our life on the high way near
woodland ave 2.
the lorry was speeding and carrying wooden logs suddenly the cable snap...
the wooden log all drop to the ground lucky we did not die...
after reaching home told baobei about tis den we watch DVD hehe...
after finish our show ii went to buy food and cook for her...
hope she like it hehe =)
after finish our food we having a good time chatting and accompany each other, after tat sent her
home le sadd... =(

wicky... today something is bothering me so dun really blog...sry guys

2010-02-07T03:07:00.003+08:00

HeyHey First of all haven been blogging for 5Days already

ok tis few days lots of shit happens, get 3 extra duties den get scolding and sabo by some camp mate... feeling very f*** up with life and stuff but lucky ii still have baobei around me...
can tell that how much we meant a lot to one another...

ok, back to my main topic ii wanna share with everyone.
baobei iis feeling unwell nowadays, her sickness are weird and she is getting weaker and weaker.
see her suffering so much, really worried and heart sick.
ii wish ii can heal her and take away all her sickness and painfulness.
ii wish ii was the one getting sick not her becos she need to study and sit for exams.
all ii could do now iis take good care of her, help her, stand by her and concern about her.

MESSAGE TO DEAR LORD, OUR HEAVENLY FATHER ABOVE US ALL

DEAR GOD, I wanna pray for my dearest Amenda here, as you can see lord you love us all and created us and bring us into this world.
you love everything you created in this world, I pray that you will help me take away all her sickness away, help her through when she is runs out of medication and I know you will watch over her even she is not a christian but Lord, you will make her that you are true loving god and a mighty god.
Give her the strength to work on her studies and guide her through her difficulty when she can't turn to anybody.
LORD, I PRAY THAT YOU WILL HELP ME IN THIS WISH!
In The Name Of Jesus I Pray! AMEN!

OK Let's Get Back to My OUTING on 05/02/2010

after camp went to meet baobei at her place, after tat go home hit the shower and wait for baobei to come over.
after 15mins baby is outside my house, den we plan to go Bishan to accompany her study.
took bus to CWP den take MRT to Bishan, baby was feeling unwell in the train feeling heart pain for her.
finally! we reach Bishan my first reaction is wow haven come to J8 for ages, last came to J8 was like 3 to 4yrs back.
the place change alot and foodcourt also different, shop also change ii guess.
went to foodcourt find Desmond, can't find becos he left without telling but at last he still call me.
went to look for sits and help baobei take order first den ii go order...
guess what ii have for my dinner? " is pepper lunch!" is the first time ii eat so SWEET rite!
ok the beef and rice are not bad but can't taste the cheese anyway is worth eating it...
after our dinner baobei, Desmond and ii went to Coffee Bean becos baobei need to study.
not bad also my first time went to coffee bean too, it shows that ii use to lock myself at home too much without going out to see how big is the world.
we have lots of fun, taking photos and video, after awhile ii went to shopping awhile leaving baby at coffee bean.
ii was looking for valentines present for her, but can't get any so ii went back coffee bean to accompany her.
baobei told me she wan drink bubble tea, so ii went to look for bubble tea.
brought her honey red tea her "favorite".
after her study, we slack awhile outside J8 Desmond went to buy 2 bottle of Beer...
he got drunk, firstly started to get emo den tears and stuff.
My 1st reaction was like "HOLY COW" 1st time see him tears drop until like nobody business...
ii can feel how's his feeling is and stuff, baobei and confort him and stuff...
Late Night is falling Nobody is around on the streets, shops are close and got no place to go somebody is drunk and we have to take care of him... so take him to my place den he paid for cab fair...
baobei and ii sent him to my place, den after tat rest awhile den ii sent baobei home...
that lots of things happen tat will never make me forget...

END OF 05/02/2010

06/02/2010

wake up in the morning to accompany baby to school before tat we went to mac for big breakfast lols...
food was not bad after all, but have to rush becos today is baby's exam day "BUSY"
after mac sent her to school den slack in her school with Desmond school to wait for her to dismiss.
Desmond and I walk around den he saw cheers leaders guess he high already den he sits there look at them make me so shy sia...
ii dun really like to look at other girls when ii have GF unless somebody I really noe or seen her many times!
ok! den we went to library to read books, hear somebody play twilight themes on the piano so cool rite! wish ii can play the piano but ii can't...
1hr pass by baby finally come out... help her carry her bag and lappy, out of a sudden baby feeling weak den ii slowly walk with her to CWP den find a place to settle down den ask her eat medicine...
later we faster go back my place to rest le... both of them sleeping den ii dun remember wad is was doing...
all ii noe is Desmond leaving soon, den ii accompany baby to sleep awhile den we wake up watch DVD... until 12 plus den we sleep again at 2:30am ii sent baobei home den ii go home
while on my way home my tummy pain like mad and the night was cold and ii can't walk so have to walk really slow to reach home... finally reach home safe and sound

THE END

Wicky... baobei please get well soon! really worry about you is been 1 week already!

2010-02-02T23:53:00.002+08:00

DAMN MY LIFE..

YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPEN TODAY?
I GET 3 EXTRA DUTY WHAT THE HELL!
NEVER MIND MY HAIR GET CAUGHT FOR LONG...
TODAY LOTS OF SHIT HAPPENS...

today suppost to go sembawang camp to collect my ITE vehicle repairing cert...
went all the way there, MR LIM is not there what the hell nvm...
so ii took bus 169 to RP to fetch baobei...
first thing ii go there is find her becoz is so sick OMFG!
after tat ii met her we walk out of school to take bus 903 go home...

in the bus,
nobody willing to give up their fucking sit to her when she can't even stand on her own...
people keep looking without doing anything nvm, people dun even move inside the inner sit also nvm...
but when we manage to sit some ass hole keep asking me to move damn du lan so ii shouted
" cannot wait izzit?!"
den tat guy shut up and walk away... typical Singaporean! ii'm a Singaporean ii feel damn lose face!
tat's why ii dun wanna be a Singaporean... dun useless, KAYPO, stomping others and doing worthless things instead of helping... now ii know why people said eyes power is stronger den hands on will we are working...

SINGAPOREAN GOOD FOR NOTHING BUT BEING KAYPO ONLY!!!

After reaching our stop ii sent baobei home, ii went back home to shower den go find baobei again becoz i'm super worry about her so i went to place to check out she is alright?
after tat saw her dam very suffering, ii feel damn heart pain sigh...
went down to buy porridge for her den go back to her place make for her...
after saw her feeling kinda better ii left her place den she eat already go and rest...

TONIGHT FAMILY DINNER...

Invited Benji over we have lots of food but something and someone is missing every year...
tonight food and soup are great, everyone eat until so full until our tummy wanna explode...
after our family dinner Benji and I went to buy drink den come up again...
few min later we go buy cig... dunno why have the urge to smoke... den smoke with Benji...
after tat sent him to bus stop den ii left le....

went face saw someone tag me... "i dun believe you did tis bro... SPEECHLESS "
if you people noe wad happen to me and my past ex you will not say tis fuck word...
she cos herself lor, nth to prove myself but to move along with my new life and girlfriend...

wicky... dun judge people by their looks becoz in the end the get hurts is urself...

2010-02-01T20:17:00.004+08:00

What A Day...

today did not go back camp, cos baby say wanna accompany so ii took MC so nice of me rite!
ok, we went to poly clinic to take MC cos anyway I'm sick too...
after seeing the doctor, we went to CWP to take a walk to shop for my jeans...
few hrs later, we go home le becoz baobei is not feeling well so we went back to my place...
we slept for awhile becos later baobei need to be in school at 4:30PM...
after we wake up ii sent baobei to school den rush back to check point help my parents to carry stuff for tomorrow steamboat...
have a argument with my sis for asking Benji to come over to steamboat 2moro...
she damn stupid lor, tat time his mom ask me go over to eat now ii invite him come over cannot?
whatever la, tomorrow Benji better come if not ii lose face!!!
hmmm guess ii will post till here... ii wanna accompany my baobei....
becos she having high fever very worry for her...

OH YA I QUARREL WITH MY BUDDY JP DUN ASK WHY BECOZ I CAN'T BE BOTHER!!!

wicky... darling i'm worry about you, pls take urself...

To: Ben, you dumb dumb la waiting for uu to eat with me uu go back sleep...
To: Baobei, you must take care of urself... love ya lots

2010-02-01T01:28:00.005+08:00

Hey Hey Finally Is 2nd mth of 2010

anyway just came back meeting Benji, Xiao Qiang and Boi...
at first Benji, Xiao Qiang and I at Check Point Play Pool and Jamming, after tat we go woodgrove to have our dinner.
after dinner, Benji and I take Xiao Qiang to our slacking area few hours later Boi come meet us...
den we go SAS slack...
but today i'm feel moody... Baobei is not here with me sigh...
anyway we got sms, misses her lots 2moro taking MC to accompany her den whole day stick with her already hehe...
but sadly now can't hear her voice becoz she is snoring at home on her comfort bed lols...

just now chat on msn with Marcus (church friend) tell him about what happen in my life...
sigh, have a feeling tat I have abandon God, but tis feeling I'm having is diff...
no matter how I runaway from him, I just can't hide becoz he is god above us and everyone...
his a mighty, powerful and a loving father... he never fail in loving me, but I fail to seek for it and change it...
so I'm planning to go to church tis Sunday for 9am service...
I'm taking 1 step at a time...

ok la will post until here le... THE END

wicky... Dear God, Father of Holy Kingdom, I'm sorry tat I left your arm but no matter how hard I runaway You still found me... when I'm alone in the darkness night I can feel tat your there...

To: Baobei, I'm Missing You... YOU KNOW YOU KNOW?!
To: Benji, Am I werid?
To: ZenZen, I'm a Happy little dude becos ii found her! and she is mine!

2010-01-31T08:13:00.002+08:00

WOW, what a great night

went to meet baobei at her friend's place, reach there waited for awhile, den ii call my bro Benji...
we were chatting on the phone... we talk about J.P and other stuff... he very bad, say ii dun wanna post something about him LOLS
we were talking about his computer and meeting up stuff... after a while baobei come down meet me, at first her dressing was weird,
after awhile something flash into my mind and ii help her change her dressing... look better den before =P... after tat we wait for her friends
den we leave the place and head towards somewhere near vivo...

everything ii did last night was my first time doing it and i'm gonna do it again =D

last night, is the first time ii went clubbin... at first was not high enough, becoz ii dunno why baobei and her friend keep walking in and out the place...
after ii drink a cup of resberry vodka, ii can feel my head heavie den ii went out the dance area and have cig...
suddenly the high feeling come already after ii heard the song "bad romance" baobei and ii were so close and is the first dance ii did, will be always remember...
ii like tis feeling, it makes me forget about the pain and unhappiness inside me...
suddenly the high feeling gone den not fun le... wanted to meet Benji but he fall asleep ba so did disturb him...
so we plan to go back to my place... from vivo back to woodlands damn expansive sia... 26 buck WTF first time ii take cab cost so ex leh...
while in the cab ii ask darling to sleep first... after a long trip back to my place... baby go to my room and sleep le...
after my shower ii also go sleep... but unlucky things happen... she over slept den her parents called and screw her... den ii feel very bad lor...

wicky... darling whatever happens i'm here always here for you... love you lots without fail

to: Benji, sure WE should do it again in the cinema wahaha!
to: Biyun, how's life nvr see uu online or tag me already...
to: Baobei, enjoy ur JB trip and ii want do this clubbin with you aagin!
to: ZenZen, still haven see you online msn or facebook drop me a text...
to: J.P, dun so stress everything will be just fine...

2010-01-30T05:54:00.004+08:00

I'm Happy, The Most Happy Little Dude!!!

29.01.10, 2.45am...

Finally You Are Mine!

I, Chua Jun Weng Ivan, S8835495H willing to take good care Chong Shan Shan Amenda.

I'm willing to Stand by Her no matter what trouble or any problem she is facing,

I'm willing to protect her, love her and never bully her like how she bully me.

I'm willing to spent my happiness, joy, love and fun with her without fail,

I'm willing to be her one and only loving boyfriend and will never leave her alone when she attitude me...

I, Chua Jun Weng Ivan, S8835495H have put my hand across my chest and put on top my heart saying this... You Will Be Love By Me and Will Be My One and Only Princess...

From Your Dearest

Wicky aka Ivan...

wicky... thanks you girl for being mine =)...

Stories of how we get together...

28.01.10

we were messaging each other...

out of a sudden she sent me a message.

"gees. I suddenly got urge to have boifren' hahas. GG." [28/01/2010] Time: 10:46 AM

SWEET! ii was like so happy!
the whole day was like so happy till ii dunno how to explained haha...

after camp den go to her school and find her, waited 1hrs plus, finally here she is lols...
we took bus back to my place.

after doing my shower stuff, we go out to town to eat BOTAK JONES...
after our dinner, we go shop around somewhere out there! woots...
ii asked her, will she be my girlfriend den she look at me and said "why so random..."
my brain started thinking lots of question and asking myself...
thinking of why she won't accept, what is the thing tat make her can't accept me...

after our shopping we wanna go home le... took bus 190 to Panjang and den take bus 178 to Woodlands...

Inside the Bus 178

Time: 11:50PM
ii told her "in 10mins ii wan her to be my girlfriend"
we have a long chat about, why she won't be my girlfriend and what is the thing tat stopping us?
lots of question mark's questions, tat ii dun even know how to shove it out...
she told why she can't accept me... Yes indeed her words make sense... but still can't bring me down or make me give up on her...

Time: 12:00AM
the last thing ii told her is "Action Speak Louder den Words" becoz I'm a person tat dun like to talk too much...
YES INDEED ii fail to have her tat night on 28/01/10...

After Reached My House
Time: 2:00AM

We have a chat, and a chat tat ii never did it with somebody tat ii really love and treasure...
ii hold her hand... ii told her

"I did not sit beside my girlfriend talking to her like what we are doing now...
I love her, ii really did and ii dun really care who is gonna look at us or how others think of us
I dun mind which guy friend she is going out with, becoz ii noe she will not do something behind my back. I believe in her, ii have faith in her, ii wanna let her noe tat my confident is 10x stronger den anyone else! I noe ii can do better den her Ex Boyfriend ii noe ii can do 10x better!"

she said something tat nobody told me before...
"I Admire Your Confident..."

I told her...
"This is the way ii am! nth can stop us... ii must believe and have faith in you! becoz ii love you"

she give me a hug

Last Thing ii told her about the Dead Tree and Heart I draw for her (will Post it)

"The heart represent her, she was hanged on the Dead Tree.
Robe, Hanging the heart becoz it never want to be found again.
Dead Tree, all her love and trust have gone, nobody cares about it.
Dark and Foggy Night, she is left alone nobody hear her sob.
But the Heart is still shine and red becoz it still finding it owner.
But With some search, I found it! I'm Gonna Cut the robe and Give the Heart to the owner.
I'm Wanna Let her Know nothing is impossible!
I found it and I'm not gonna make it bleed or break it. becoz ii found it"

I asked her
"are you willing to be my girl? are you?"

she did not reply...

I asked her again
"are you willing to be my girlfriend?"

29/01/10
Time: 2:45AM

she smile and kissed me in my lips...
and yes! she willing to be mine! YEAH!!!
THE END

wicky... finally ur mine, nothing gonna take uu away...

2010-01-27T01:25:00.002+08:00

hey readers, friends and best-friend sorry for my inactive on my posting.

ok wad ii wanna share is wad had happen past few days and today...
few days ago lots of things happen to my friend and ii we had some misunderstanding...
like keep disturbing and make each other angry using so ugly hurting words...
although we were joking but at last somebody aka menda have knock some sense into my head...
she told me ii had hurt my bro Benji will joking with each other guess next time ii must be serious with them...
if wad ii said is hurting people out there I'm sorry, just wanna let Benji noe tat when he see me dun give me tat kind of bored or no life look it makes me think of somebody leaving alone at woodgrove doing nothing when they are enjoying the high feeling and I'm sitting there doing nothing and ii dun like tat feeling...
sorry to say this, I'm just scare of things happen in woodgrove...

SORRY BRO aka Benji if ii said things have piss you off i'm really sorry... THE END

Finally The Last Day of Outfield... All the Best Wicky...

this morning went to menda's place... go there first thing is give her a big hug den go to her bed and sleep becoz I'm gonna sick to the death feel cold and stuff...

but ii wanna thanks her for taking good care of me... feed me and make honey drink for me hehe
thanks girl... den after tat rest awhile sent her to take cab and den ii left le before ii left ii saw somebody who iis from my Secondary School her name is Mei Xin... she look damn tired sia den have a short chat with her den left le... reach home den sleep awhile den go back camp le...

FORWARD TO CAMP STORY...
in camp doing nth but waste of time, tis is it.... life wasted again...
everyday doing same thing again finally 10PM...
ii rush out of camp saw some one driving MID pickup den got to noe is the BDO... so he sent out to chong pang camp... den take bus from there to MRT to Somerset and pick menda from her working place den we took bus home... after reaching woodlands she accompany me go eat den ii sent her...and we are on the phone le so nth post le bb...

wicky... it tat true?

just doin diz out of boredom =)

2010-01-25T02:45:00.002+08:00

menda's bloggin the first time in her life. LOL. bloggin in ivan's blog in replacement of ben.

life's never as fantastic as it seems, isnt it ?dere re so many times you juz wana give up, leavin behind al the solitudes, the heartaches, the feelin of bein neglected by the whole world; bud dere's always somethin pullin you back, tellin you to continue fightin, givin ur every best.

i was at the verge of givin up every single bit of trust i had in love (once again), a vicious cycle dat juz kips repeatin itself. whenever anyone steps into a relationship, dere's bound to have happiness, sweetness and wadsoever crap, bud when it comes to an end, it leaves nth bud misery, solitudes, pain, heartaches. goin pass juz one is sufficient to make me lose my mind, go blank n die. however, juz like mentioned, dere's always somethin pullin me back; n diz unfounded reason, kept me alive n kickin 'til diz very moment.

after gone thru so many relationship's ups and downs, finally n coincidentally got to know the owner of diz blog. whether ornot at the end of the day, we'l live happy ever after, i dont know, n i never believed in it. before we re together, we've already gone thru too much .. too much to be true .. to much to think dat we re compatible.

boi .. dont be constantly afraid of me leavin you, leavin your life. it al ties down to fate, let it be a natural kinda thin; too much "afraids" wil drown you. eu're good, too good to be true. bein with eu really makes me calm, allows me to disregard everythin bad dat is fallin on me, eu can even let me forgo the very-important-thin in my life - sleep; dats the reason why im stil her at diz wee hour. if i have a choice, if i have total control of my heart, i juz wana stop here, stop at where we re now n i dont wan another relationship becoz it means another heartache. be kinder to yourself, let yourself free, share with me; anythin may it be. dont worry .. i wont go 'til i noe eu're perfect standin alone. i cant bear to anyways.

ask me to describe you usin one word in my heart. you're indelible. n im so used to ur xistance .. i never wan us to be a past tense. everythin i do .. i wan you to be happy, to be dat smal boi dat i always noe. =)

2010-01-25T00:29:00.002+08:00

Hey... anyone missing me again?

ok first thing ii wanna share about is things are going fine with me and her...
we have been very close and hang out the whole week hehe =P...

ok today we went to marina square but before going there we went to esso to find Billy,
but he not there TSK!... we saw a yellow car park at the roadside and it looks weird and ii dunno how to explain, saw the car get fine den we walk to esso...

few mins later we took bus to CWP den take 960 to Marina Square, is a long trip from woodlands to Marina... LMAO... first thing we went there is FIND FOOD LOLS!!!

we went to Kenny Roger (cafe) the food are not bad will post it went ii got the photo hehe =)...
ii can say wad ii order eat already will full, worth eating and worth buying haha...
after eating we went shopping and walk walk haha... really enjoy myself and having time with her... thx girl this week uu accompany me alot really appreciate it...

time pass really fast, happy moment ended she need to accompany her parents and brother to have family dinner... sent her to Jurong MRT station den took train back to Marsiling...

Meet Up with Benji at woodgrove, we den go esso find Billy slack awhile den ask Benji accompany me go buy something for her...

Benji and ii went tomeet J.P and her friend at woodgrove, slack awhile Benji and ii went to toilet to Pee after tat we go 7 eleven to buy drink...

Few Min Later, J.P called us and we went up to 4th floor den Police are with them den... GG liao... after tat we left le

THE END!!!

wicky... View Benji Blog for More information...

2010-01-21T23:15:00.003+08:00

is been so long...
ii haven been blogging...
is like a feeling ii have missing...
the heart and echo is getting softer...
the hearing is getting, lower and lower...
something is missing, but ii got to find it....
ii have to find it back, where it belongs too...
wicky wake up something is inside you wake up...
YOU HAVE TOO WAKE UP UR IDEA, BEFORE IS TOO LATE...

sun shine upon my face, a new song for me to sing...
life is suck in army days but i'm still holding on just for the god damn license...
life is better, when she is around my side holding on supporting me when ii almost falling...
ii'm happy staying with you, ii just like the way uu laugh at me, bully me and love me...
you are someone who is really special to me...
time spending with you passing real fast and ii just wanna be with you just you, only you...
without you i'm nth... color, hope, dreams and life was fill up by you, so dun ever leave...

_________THE END________

Past few days things are pretty shit in camp keep getting into trouble with 126SQN Officer SUX!
one officer keep getting me into trouble... angry leh so tough for wad?
THIS IS RSAF NOT SAF... uu are air force not armed force... DICK FACE!!!
add word into my mouth and say ii drive with half eyes closing lols....
forget about it is friday 2moro so hope and pray hard no recalled from them if not sure die...
maybe going outfield next week so dun think can see menda how leh??? =(
whatever it is ii believe she will wait for me... ii noe she will...

wicky...there is something missing can uu fill up for me?...

2010-01-17T23:09:00.002+08:00

my life is doing great....

time pass real fast, did nt blog for 1 days den now come here to post something...
how's my life going? great not bad... fun, happy moment all times and learning forward...

yesterday went out to town with menda, we go eat at lucky plaza, den go shopping at far east plaza... we saw alot of things cheap and expansive stuff, like DC shoe, Jacket, shirt, dress, boots etc etc... we really enjoy our moment out there together, but again time pass fast happy moment dun last, she got to go work, so we go to botak jones which is at NYC... sent her to work, den ii went to skate park... saw MR. DICK (Shawn) at there skateboarding... accompany him awhile lols, see him always nth good spent money TSK!!! at the same time waiting for her to end work is a long hours haha but is ok really enjoy waiting dunno why....

finally 9hrs pass... she end work ii happy we go home togther, taking NR2 back to our home town woodlands... den sent her home den ii go home... THE END...

wicky... photo will be upload soon... Girl are uu enjoy ur moment with me out there?... COZ ii DO!

2010-01-16T02:16:00.003+08:00

Let's Talk About Thursday Night

had a great night with menda at my house we talk alot, sleep alot and we also share the view together outside my window...
ROMANTIC "if uu love someone else uu will nvr forget about tis word"
den sent her home at 2am den go back home and sleep again...
late for camp tis morning got scolded by daddy... lols den he drive me to camp...
reach camp kena scolded by oldman W.Officer Jeff... sigh...
NEVER MIND BEST PART IS HE DELAY MY TIME AGAIN!!! ARGH!!!
AND I'M SO ANGRY TAT MY PRESENT FROM ZEN ZEN LOST OMFG!!!

anyway saw Desmond at Town, he also alone so we two shop together and play TZ... wahaha
fun... but again happy moment dun last... before we left we took lots lots of photo hehe =) will post it soon...

HATE 2010 FROM THE START!

wicky... Zen Zen i'm sorry ii lost that thing you give me argh...

2010-01-13T21:46:00.003+08:00

TUESDAY Last Night damn very very bored...

nothing much to post... just feeling no mood about last night... meet up with her and Norman... den slack lor... den sent her home... The End...

Tonight... Nothing much to say about...

today go camp den drive up and down like usual, end at 7.30pm go home myself...
menda went to town with her friend... Benji come find me now dunno wanna go where already... nothing much to post...

wicky... is getting EMO...

2010-01-12T09:55:00.002+08:00

what a life...

time pass really slow last night and they delay my damn time... should end at 7pm they let me go off at 10.30 pm damn angry but lucky menda was here to accompany me... feel damn bad to keep her waiting, but time pass fast with her around my side... if during tis 9 mths she always come accompany me and wait for me my army life sure pass damn fast...

finally 10.30pm, some guys from my camp drive us down the road and we took 169 to yishun den meet up with Lincoln and pass him 50 bucks, have a short chat with him den go off le... menda and ii went to starbucks to use the internet but try so many cannot get through so we went to mac... after submit her school work we took bus back to woodlands, ii had my dinner at 892 and den walk her home... THE END...

wicky... sry for my short post i'm very sleepy...

2010-01-11T01:59:00.002+08:00

WHAT A BORING SUNDAY NIGHT

hmm is 2am in the morning and ii still haven sleep WTH...
now on the phone with menda and Benji... all of us are still awake and we are doing our stuff...
Benji making lots of noise through the phone, menda study and talking on the phone and last but not least me just finish edit Zen Zen's blog... now come here to post... today nothing much happen went jogging with Benji and meet up with Billy to get my money back den go to Benji house take L4D... tat's all for to sunday night...

SAD, HAPPY SATURDAY, DAY AND NIGHT

alot of things happen sat morning but everything is back to fine becoz ii holding on tight no matter wad... bought her a ring and went to PUB last night at woodgrove with Benji, Billy, menda and myself... we have fun last night really fun...
but again happy moment dun last remember?
den bought VODKA and COKE den we mix them in the end ii got drunk lols...
but there is someone ii haven said who he is, his name is Xiao Qiang so his there too we drink at FCC... so 5 of us were there, but there is somebody very irritating keep speaking malay language... zzz...

after drinking we all went home... menda sent me home and we do our stuff after tat we sleep till tis afternoon... THE END...

wicky... life is to relax and enjoy not to torture ourselves... Love Her Lots

2010-01-09T04:56:00.002+08:00

Friday Night Burn!!!

friday should be going till late night but in the end is a burn night...
today went to menda's place and sleep again at 2 plus den after tat sent her to school...
she said "ii first time sent her to school so happy" but ii went home after she go for her exam...
after her exam we meet up becoz ii need to go for a hair cut, ii look much handsome now lols...
after my hair cut we go eat mac den go back my place to change and hit the shower den we go CWP...

while on our way to CWP menda is on the phone with angry mood "scary".... guess make Norman her angry again... sigh ii also dunno how to say but 1 thing is ii'm very happy becoz did not go clubbing hehe we go Time Zone and play game and had lots of fun... but again happy moment dun last long... went to she Benji place go so piss off by wad his mom said... ii swear next will not go to his place again...

after leaving his place we go meet Billy at coffee shop... den go to Woodlands Check Point play pool... after pool we slack until 5am in the morning den go home...THE END...

wicky... just hang on there...

2010-01-08T16:37:00.003+08:00

What a fast passing week of the year 2010.

through out tis week shit happens again, last night after camp my tummy started to feel funny... reach home i started vomit and shit like nobody business lols...

went to meet her under her block to go admiralty mac together, but ii really sick until dun feel like moving... so she said go to my house and study again reach home vomit like nobody business... den mummy ask me go hospital so wait for sis Evelyn to pick us up and drive us to SGH to see doctor...

their service was efficient, doctor said ii need to drip so no choice becoz ii get food poisoning... she is around there for me without feeling angry or irritated ii feel bad for her becoz ii'm keeping her waiting from 2.30am to 5am is like so long but she is still there for me... ii feel very happy...

time pass really fast for me becoz ii was sleeping on the bed but for her very poor thing hmmm...
finally 5am but still cannot go off yet doctor haven come we still need to wait for 1 hr for the doctor... finally can go home le we take cab home from SGH back to my house den we both went to sleep...

tis afternoon Benji come visit me haha first time, den he buy food for me haven paid him the money yet... really thanks uu guys lots always at my side no matter how shit it is... thx uu all

wicky... even when the hope is gone move along move along like ii know ur do move along...thx uu guys

2010-01-07T01:42:00.003+08:00

what a tiring day...

wake up tis morning at 6AM, den went to her place to accompany her den we sleep together...
9.15AM she need to reach school so ii wake up at 8.30am den sent her to bus stop before tat we go back to my place to take calculator becos she need to use for exam... after tat sent her to bus stop den she go off le...

went back home and chat on phone with her awhile, den i go and sleep again... becoz later need to wake up and go back camp... reach camp slack awhile den started driving... my army life is black and white so nothing much to say, reach camp start driving up and down tat's all... today should end at 9.30pm, but staff sgt let me go of at 8pm becos ii need to buy concession... reach MRT station, chiong my way back to woodlands den go back home and hit the shower den rush to her work place to find her den we go home together... we went t eat around our place den slack awhile den go home le... THE END

wicky... ii must find the real uu back... but where should ii start from?

2010-01-06T00:20:00.003+08:00

My Day Is Ruin WTF...

today should be meeting her... and they let me go off at 10pm... WTH.. iii sure be going home at 9pm yet 10pm damn angry reach woodland at 11pm den she cannot come out sian sia whole day did nt see her wanna go crazy already... den 2moro start at 2pm again dunno how late will end again...

damn, kena ps by Benji WTH is wrong nowadays start of 2010 so suay leh What The Fish!!!

so freaking angry until ii also dunno wad to blog leh

wicky...Ns suck leh delay my damn time, every sec, min and hrs is important for me...

2010-01-05T00:24:00.002+08:00

WOW i'm so FUCKING TIRED CAN!

today should end at 2pm den they delay me till 5pm kenasai, den never mind ii suddenly fainted they sent me to MO... after tat went back driving again ii bang on to something... i'm too tired...
whole day kena spoil by the 126 SQN people WTF leh... at last someone told me she miss me too... just a simple word, my life got brighten up again haha...

after camp, ii rush my way to CWP to meet her den sent her to work... after tat ii went back home to bath, chat on msn and looking for some music... den Benji called me asked me where am ii so ii tell him "i'm at home"...
becos we said wanna meet up after he end his lesson... we meet at almeen, ii order mutton soup with rice and bread yum yum... so hungry... after tat wait for her to end work den slack awhile with Benji and Her... after tat went to Benji's house take back guitar and sent her home...

after reach home, mommy making lots of noise again about daddy changing her cellphone and stuff... plus that room rental still using the bloody toilet wanna hit the shower also can't damn angry...

wicky...my body is getting weaker am ii gonna leave tis world tat soon becoz is 5yrs Doc said my wound is nt yet heal

2010-01-04T04:14:00.006+08:00

A Sudden Awake Middle Of The Night...

ok ii was sleeping on the phone with Her aka menda suddenly ii got a weird nightmare tat stop me from sleeping again... ii check the time was like almost 2am ii was like WTF...
ii called Benji tot his the one missed called me but, in the end was not him ii went to check my phone it was a private number so ii called menda...
she picked up the phone, den ii asked her izzit she called me at 12.20am?
she said "yup becoz ii hang up the phone" den we continue to sleep but no matter how hard ii try ii totally can't becoz of the nightmare ii had...
guess ii have been thinking too much stuff nowadays, so ii totally can't sleep ii hold on the phone till my batt is dead...
ii wake up to check my computer but no matter how tired ii am, ii still can't fucking sleep ii dunno wad the hell is wrong with me...

Back to the story where ii left libary...

after finishing her studies, we went to CWP get some drinks instead of getting drinks we went to mac and eat twisted fries... den we went to body shop, she bought something for herself and me... she buy me a facial foam, which ii really like to use it and it cos 20 bucks plus plus....
at first ii tot it was free if she buy anything but in the end must paid, ii feel damn heart pain lor...
dun wanna spent her money becoz she gonna be not working for a week becoz her work place going to renew hmm, just feel damn heart pain for her but ii really like the facial foam...
thanks girl for tat facial foam...
after we left CWP we go to tree huts park to slack for awhile, after tat we went to take 913 go back home...THE END

wicky... is tat the right time to leave? ii dunno... if uu wan me to stay just tell me ii will...

2010-01-03T17:47:00.002+08:00

WOW last day of a long week end for me...

time pass really fast, now can use my finger to count how many month left to ORD...wahaha
oh ya, last night after we left the libary we went to watch Jennifer's body at my place wahaha swt... tis is the 2nd time ii watch is nice and ii really like it... becos they have tis song through the trees... wahaha... after tat we rest for awhile den tis morning sent her home...

wake up at 1pm becoz Shawn came over and ask me where is my deck(skateboard) tot ii give him already... den tell me he wan give his girlfriend WTH! want give ur gf things use ur own money to buy dun take my stuff and give ur gf, den ii went back to sleep
wake up at 3pm becoz menda called me to go out study with her...
few min later Benji call me, he told me that he left his Helen key for me outside my house wow tat's fast unlike him... becoz he told me he went jogging tis morning can uu imagine a lazy person went jogging tat's weird... maybe his started to change his life, hope he keep it up and won't be so lazy...

after wake up went to do my morning stuff, bath, wash up and etc etc...
meet her under her's block and we take back to CWP den walk to cilvic center libary... waited for sits walking around still cannot find the sits we want becoz we need the "plucks" for our laptop...
finally got sits le, now we started to do our things... THE END

wicky...time is passing really fast after my trip ii wanna back study and sign on police force... sign off

2010-01-02T20:08:00.004+08:00

wow first time using my laptop outside!!!

i'm currently at woodlands cilvic center libary with her hehe...
we come becoz she wanna study, so accompany her...

oh ya tis morning ii make egg with toast for her ii think not bad ba hope she likes it!!!
where have been very close for so long... really enjoing my life now and things ii do...

all the shit have gone ii guess, but there is still something bothering me ii dunno how to say...
so ii guess i'm happy, she's happy everyone is happy now... =D

2010 is here really can't wait for 16 Nov 2010 becoz, ii really wanna get out of singapore for awhile... ZenZen promised to get me out of tis mess, ii really need someone to take me away from tis shit having around...think ii'll be gone for a month, ii noe ii will be missing someone here hope she understand how's my feeling... to gain trust for each other we have to do something hard to believe in each other, so we will have the trust in each other...ii guess if i'm gone here ii will be missing her alot alot... haha so must wait for me wor... guess i'll take her go eat chicken chop rice later hope have close yet... my tummy very very the hungry...

oh ya waiting for tat bloody Benji to pass me the money to return my book fine zzz so late still haven reach zzz faster la...

guess i'll post to here first becoz the libary is closing in 1/2 hrs

wicky...if i'm nt around will uu be missing me?... sign off... miss and love ya =P

2010-01-02T18:11:00.003+08:00

WOOT something new learn in life...

1st thing ii have learn is, ii try to edit my blog html in the end it works! wow...
so now dun need to trouble Benji or J.P to help me edit my blog already...

2nd thing ii have learn is, ii just change my CPU green light to purple blue light which is 10x much nicer can!!! wahaha

3rd thing ii have learn is, nothing is impossible if you did not try to find it out...
in life if you did not put in effort to the fullest uu will never success in the things uu do...

so we must keep learning and never give up...

2010-01-02T03:31:00.003+08:00

A RIDE OUTSIDE TONIGHT...

went out to meet my secondary classmate and some outside friend who use to be brother...
they are Johnny, Zhi An, Kim, Alex and Wei Jun.

they have changed, all become another person which ii dun really know like before... Kim don't like to talk much with me anymore hmmm wad is wrong?

Alex, Zhi An and Johnny were talking about their Camp Stuff, Kim was on the phone with someone else and Wei Jun still the same kena disturb by them....

not long later, somebody call me wor hehe my feeling happy wor.
tot she wanna meet me but in the end she did not cos too tired to move haha...
is ok at last she still call me means she care for me hehe not long later, she hang and went back to sleep...

after begin left out alone for awhile we went to 892 to have tea... the moment ii reach there something flash into my mind thinking of her and want to buy food for her but in the end ii did le cos she sleeping den ii dun wanna disturb her sweet dreams...

few mins later we all wanna go back home le... ii was cycling half way my trial bike like gt problem so it takes me sometime to reach her block downstairs called her and ask her wanna come out but she dun wan hmmm nvm... so ii also went back home le.... THE END

wicky... are they still my friend or not... feeling weird...

2010-01-01T21:17:00.003+08:00

This...it...is...LIFE WASTED...Again....

just wake up wah ii tell you are ii freaking tired... come back from count down tis morning damn tired plus damn du lan cans!

last nite went count with menda and her sec schoolmate den we went to Henderson wave to count down... see not much but fireworks and slack there till morning... again she bring me to a place tat ii wanna go for so long lols... just very happy to stay by her at her side...

that Norman make her DAMN PISS OFF and ii see already also wanna smack him sia... people nt ur GF you still hug and kiss her like ur GF... i'm jealous but ii did nt show it out...

but happy moment always come to almost the end, she come to my house den we 2 sleep like pig... haha den again happy moment dun last long cos she need go home le...

now on the phone with her haha so happy sia. miss her lots lots and is a unstoppable missing her...anyway feel like going out but dunno wanna go where must think... think i'll stop here

wicky... every moment means alot to me.... Love and Miss her Lots Lots

2010-01-01T08:58:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone! =D
To every readers! HAPPY NEW YEAR!
currently outside with Amenda and her ex school mates!
celebrate NEW YEAR together! never bring Benji go cause he tired and he don't wan go so far far away!
Hmmmm! wonder will this NEW YEAR be my new start? well, no one know.
I hope that i will come out with a plan to be ask Amenda to be my BABY!
heeehee.... so sweet of me =X
hmmmmm...
now dunno at what bus heading back woodlands/marsiling.....
Benji currently at my house sleeping,sorry to paiseh him at home hope he will not angry
and something happen that make me very angry...

i will post later when i reach home =D

bye pees/reader

Your writer,
Wicky

2009-12-30T21:38:00.004+08:00

A very lonely nite...

today end early, den went to her work place to fetch her home but tonight she go clubbing, hmmm really started to get worried for her... sigh tomorrow my off day really wish to see her ii wanna go JB with her becoz ii nvr have a chance to go overseas with my GF, Friend or Best Friend...

nowadays very very tired and sleepy and ii can't sleep alone without her...
only can fall asleep when ii go to her place...
ii dunno why i'm scare and worried about...
but when she is here beside me, ii feel more comfortable and secure...

wicky... ii wanna let the world noe how much ii care about uu... just 1 great song will do tat =)... sign off

2009-12-30T04:09:00.001+08:00

Hello!

Jp here:)

I'm here to change

his blogskin.

Lols so nice of me rite?

Hope he will like it :)

All thank to me!

2009-12-30T02:17:00.002+08:00

WOW tis...is...it....Life Wasted...zzz

ok went to find her and meet Benji at woodgrove...
we went to eat together with Dexter, Benji's Brother at 306 den after finish our food we slack awhile hehe...
try to make Dexter black out but fail no choice need choke him le finally he did black out...lols den after tat sent menda home...things is getting better Norman nvr pick her again hehe love you babe haha

wicky...tonight i'm falling and ii can't get up ii need ur loving hand to pick me up... tonight is a boring night...sign off

2009-12-30T01:48:00.003+08:00

HEY HEY HEY!!!

wondering should i make a blog anot......
lazy update my own stuff and etc....
ivan see this post call me ASAP!!!....
i help you link JP.... and now i need your help!!!

2009-12-29T17:41:00.002+08:00

How's Life Today?
hmm did not sleep last night finally ii can fall asleep when ii went to her place at 6.30am den rest for awhile.
keep having funny nightmare, sigh dunno wad the hell is tat.
wake up at 8.30am den cab to camp hehe...
nothing much happen in camp today just driving around den go back home le kinda tired but just dunno why ii cannot sleep leh...
hmm we chat on phone haha so happy to hear her voice wor, ok la think nth much to post later come back from meeting her den post again...

2009-12-29T17:37:00.004+08:00

This are the photo take during X'mas eve!!!

2009-12-29T01:07:00.004+08:00

Been Through Shit for So Long...
why dun uu blame yourself?
why things change so much becoz uu dun say about yourself?
4years yet you say ii never protect you and still said ii give you so much problem?
when you went out with Boon Kiat during my duty in the fucking camp why you dun say?
during my birthday you throw me alone at home with nobody celebrating with me... do you noe how suck it is?
when nobody paid for your handphone bill who is the one paying ur shit? ur Pa Hai Tong Friend ar!
you said there are so many guys out there better den me becoz you dun treasure me...
you go out with lots of guys think ii dunno?
ii dun give you freedom what fuck you talking?!
ii let you go out with ur friend yet you go flirt with them WTF is tis?
Thanks for taking my youth away from me!!!
ii hope you said in the phone make sure you dun did the same mistake like wad others did!!!
ii did not work? ii wanna let you noe lor ii sell ice-cream tat time just to buy you a fucking ring!!!
when people talk shit behind your back, i'm still there protecting you!
i'm better den your friends, becoz of you ii give up my brothers!
LET ME TELL YOU TIS, I FEAR NOBODY EVEN IF COME 10, 20 MAN ii ALSO NOT SCARE!!! ALWAYS STAND HERE WAIT FOR UR STUPID CHILDISH FRIEND TO CHOP ME!!!

Ok Today not a very happy day but still can hang on there
went out at 4 plus cycle to FCC to meet Benji to eat KFC, wah order alot eh haha eat lot sia dunno why...
after eating went to his house to use com den wait for J.P to call us, after few min J.P told us she reach le den went to meet her... after few hours menda end work le happy sia when see her becoz Norman did not come pick her wor... den the 4 of us went to 167 slack slack awhile den J.P need go le den left Benji, menda and me.. we walk 1 BIG round back to 300 plus to eat, again ii order alot of food hahaha... after finish den we all go home le...
after sending her home my mind suddenly pop out something it makes me anyhow think but ii dunno wad it is just keep walking home.... The End

Am ii that lousy?
If is yes pls wake up ur fucking idea... I have always done my part and never fail you but you did...

wicky...1 great song can change my feeling... just don't force me to become another wicky... sign off...

2009-12-28T01:18:00.002+08:00

the most crazy life ii ever have now!

some bloody bitch got wad she want already and now still hack my msn and change my password, wad the fuck is wrong with people nowadays?! Feeling DAMN PISS OFF CAN!

wadeva la as long she think like tat make a feel better den anything lor, ii did nth wrong at all she wan brain wash my whole family den go ahead la, ii give her my family also no problem la... just wanna let my sis noe lor uu also a bitch lor uu noe ii won't do such childish things to disturb other people blog or wad lor uu still helping her... dun forget when uu need someone there for you tat time i'm the only bloody fool is there supporting uu and Kenny lor now uu fucking help her uu good la!!! next time uu and Kenny or others got problem go find Amanda! dun ever find me!

OK finish complaint le now wanna share wad ii do TODAY!!!
wake up called her tot she called me becoz ii saw a miss called with private number (no number)
chat awhile when to shower den take my guitar go out and sing song with some of my hi bye friend (not very close friend) den wait for shawn to come find me becoz ii called him to ask tat bloody bitch return my msn password and she denied, DIU! after tat when to change my guitar strings now sounds better den before =D den wait for her to end work lor when to see her den go 338 slack alone there den pratice some song becoz ii wanna perform on stage!!! tis is my DREAM!!! den went back to find her and wait for her to end work.... after awhile she finally end work we walk home together we pass by alot of big houses behind woodgrove we are happy together!!! one more thing Norman never come find her wahahaha!!! den walk half way take bus 912 go back our area to slack slack and teach her how to play Qing Tian on the my guitar... ii give her my other guitar although is nt tat nice but still working hope she like it ba after tat sent her home.... THE END...

wicky...1 great rock song can change the world!!! wicky there is a stage for uu to perform work hard for it!!! sign off

2009-12-27T04:15:00.005+08:00

Hurt yourself doesn't solve the problem........
lol.... you are no longer the ivan i know le.....
the old ivan won't admit defeat.....
but how rather than admit defeat you hurt yourself.......
i wish this is the last time i heard from you that you cutting your hand....
lol.... just think back, when you saw amAnda hurt herself do you like it???
i dare to say NO LOR!!!...... this cutting wrist is so risky lor!!
lmao =(..... ok la..... bye now....

Dj.Ben sign off now!!!

2009-12-27T00:43:00.002+08:00

My Heart Is Torn into Million of Pieces...
today she saw me and give me a called when to chase after her den give her a hug her before she left for work... ii noe things will be ugly after she meet up with her ex bf... ii dunno wad is in my heartache iis but tiis feeling haven been here now iis back again... she hugged him and kissed him ii guess, and tat guy is not Norman but someone who she used to love before...

Tonight Norman took her away from me again!
Boon hugged you and kissed you...
wad should ii do?
feel like ending my life....
ii love her so much tat ii wanna give up my life!
i'm half crazy and out of my mind i'm going insane for your love...
BABY... i'm here waiting for you, ii just dun like it when they left a mark on my story book...
sigh ii dunno wad to blog now ii'm lost...

wicky love you dun let go of my hand i need you... stay with me baby ur mine!!!!

2009-12-26T16:21:00.003+08:00

What A Boring Sat!!!
very very bored lor just finish bathing, before tat ii was mapling still the same very bored leh!!!!
feeling really fuck up lor dunno why?! argh wad is tat heartache in my heart ii really dunno i wanna cry but who should ii turn to Ben, Shawn or Her?
ii really lost my way and ii need someone to take me back to where ii am... ii really dunno wad to do, i'm just a ship lost in the ocean with a spoiled compass sigh... ii need someone to guide me back to the land where there is everyone waiting for my ship to aboard...

Ok back to wad ii wanna share!!!
last night ii saw her online!!! so happy hehe den ii asked her to go out eat with me but she really DID!!! so amazed haha hmmm we walk all the way to 166 den ii order alot of things so hungry till ii dunno how to explain... after finish our food den we walk back by passing the hill and places where we both used to live when we are still kid. Amazing rite! hmmm den we walk down the hill and take a sit near old folks home, we rest awhile den continue our walk to buy some drinks at near by patrol station after tat go to my house to rest... ii play some song on my gutar for her...after resting awhile den sent her home... if everynight just me and her how sweet the night is... ii nvr have a galfriend who can come out at night to accompany me, but she is the first gal tat can come out at night meet me and accompany me although she not my galfriend yet... anyway we hold on the phone till fall asleep how sweet it is hehe "she snore wor haha must be very tired for her" wahahaha!!!

OH YA ONE MORE THING BOON ASK HER TO HUG HIM WTF!!!
if he dare do anything funny sure kena from me de guess i'm jealous
baby dun hug him ok? sigh

wicky... sign off... Love Her Lots Lots

2009-12-25T22:01:00.003+08:00

Last Christmas, ii give you my heart the very next day you give it away...

hmm tonight iis christmas night most of the people, couple, family and friends were outside celebrating christmas day... but i'm all alone again just like when ii was kid ii really hate it ii really love christmas so much yet ii dun have a chance to celebrate christmas with my friends, family and her... just have to sing tis song
"lonely, lonely christmas. merry, merry christmas!"

ii feel like i'm all alone by myself again
if tis world got no sadness will things better?
if tis world got no hate will there be fight?
if tis world got no love will there be tears?
sometime ii do wonder what god is telling me?
wadeva it is ii choose the path ii have to keep walking with it no point turning back =/

Wad have ii done during X'mas countdown?
went to vivocity with Ben and Shawn, walk walk, take photo, play guitar hero and eat long john silver haha
den went to town 2gether for countdown X'mas. buy some snow spray to spray people but things went out wrong way,1ST was tis japaness fat boy hit my head from my back and den run away. 2ND there tis stupid malay guy punch my face den say merry x'mas and pretend nth happen WTF and tat is why ii really hate malay pigs you noe you noe? x'mas is fun when uu play but not go until too Xtreme but anyway, She Called Me back when ii miss called her, so happy and she also told me where she is... went to find her and give her a hug, and tat hug makes me dun feel like giving her a chance to leave me....sigh baby ii'm waiting for uu really waiting for you, waiting for you kiss me at the night hehe... ok anyway when to prank people after meeting her and hug her...

ii was chasing a bangala den after tat saw... LIVE BAND IN A PUB WAH ii TELL YOU AR!!!
they were playing acoustic version numb! with GIBSON semi acoustic guitar WOOOT!!!
my body and hand can't stop moving, cheering and singing along!!!
after tat take some photo with Ben and Shawn den wait for NR2 to go back woodlands

Baby tis time we were nt together watching live band ii feel uncomfortable without you here watching with me, will uu still wanna watch live band with me? =(

wicky... sign off... ii become so numb~~!!!...

2009-12-25T06:54:00.009+08:00

YOYOYOYOYOYOYO!!!!

Hey! This Is Dj.Ben here AGAIN!!

The EMO~KIA~AKA~WICKY~AKA~IVAN IS SLEEPING LMAO.....ZZZzzzZZZzzZZZzzZZ

will post soon once i bloodly HELL take his phone.....
-----> STUPID HEAD WICKY! <---- HighLight To See What I Wirte... <3

*FUCK*
*<---Ignore * and GREEN COLOUR WORDS!--->*
two line above is annoying!!! WILL YOU STOP THAT Dj.Ben OR MAY NOT!<---- STILL Dj.Ben

Alright Dj.Ben Sign Off At Marsiling which located in S'pore....... IN WICKY HOUSE!!!

2009-12-24T12:44:00.005+08:00

wow thx to dj Benji, for posting on my blog haha i'm waiting for her to come back i'm sure she will becoz she like someone who have confident so, ii must show her how much ii like and love her... thx for being at my side dj Benji for supporting me all the way...

OK let's see wad ii wanna post today!!!
today wasted $11.35 on cab fair F sia go camp not even 5hrs den come back already zzz.... hmmm once again She left me again but nvm on 30 Jan 2010 3.00 PM same place, where the bus stop is we will meet again =3 heart now is missing her so much... tis year X'mas will be a lonely X'mas... nvm tis is just the stories started all ii can do for her now is protect her without let her knowing ba... menda... "i'm here, always here. take my eyes to guide uu home!"

Wad am ii doing now?
chatting with my best friend dun think is best friend but almost like my younger sister haha... we like so long nvr see each other through webcam le sigh finally ii see her wanna noe who she is? her name is..... ZEN ZEN wahahaha!!! we miss other so much can! after the genting trip still have contact and stuff but after sometime, we like no time for each other coz we too busy with our stuff hahaha but nw see her smile feeling much better le she also have bf le congratz ar!!! OH YA almost forgot thx Zen Zen for helping me to upload the song and link her blog!!! ok la will post tonight... bye bye blog blog!!! later come back post post again!!!

To: menda! "we got to hold on, no matter how hard or the road is my eyes is guiding uu along ur way, 30 jan 2010 3.00 PM

2009-12-24T05:32:00.003+08:00

EVERYONE LEAVE YOUR BLOG LINK IN THE TAG BOARD FOR ME TO LINK YOU LA *FUCK*!!!!

LAST CHANCE FOR YOU GUYS!!!!
WARNING!!! Dj.Ben going crazy!!!
WARNING!!! Owner.Ivan going DIE!!!

*<----ignore it when you saw--->*

2009-12-24T05:26:00.003+08:00

http://www.mediafire.com/?yw0ojdr4tyk

This is the link for the song ivan!!!
by. Sylvester Sim---->Suo Yi ~所以
lmao.....
pro leh =D Rmb the lyric what he sing......
STAY STRONG!!!
LOL i like fuck sia know his password for blog
Btw nice Blog Edit By. Ivan <----i think so

2009-12-24T02:02:00.006+08:00

Losing End??

Just fetch her from her work place and Norman was around too, really can't stand the way he talk to Amenda! I feel like Norman is taking her away from me again but in the end he manage too...
those word tat came out from his mouth was hurting... just feel like i'm a bad company tat teach her all bad stuff... feel like i'm low educated person sigh... but in my heart ii never wanna be gangster at all i'm just slow... ii fight becoz of self defence becoz ii was born with no family love, but in my heart i'm not a bad guy as wad others think and who will noe? wadeva he said just making me feeling very uncomfortable.... I'm just slow really slow will you all believe me?

But best thing is ii did nt lay my fist on Norman if ii do tat Amenda will hate me till the core...
She wanna stop meeting me for 1mth and is a force to do tat, ii noe she is kind hearted person she nvr wanna hurt somebody who mean alot to her... wadeva it is 1mth ii will still be waiting ii noe she have given me part of her heart tis half ii will keep it,,, she won't just leave me like tat ii noe...

Wadeva it is, Amenda!!! hold on till the very last of my heart beat coz it echo's on!!
if only the picture painted without Xiao Qiang in it my story book will not have so many scar...
maybe tis is part of our life ba... human is rite nothing is perfect just like how god create us and everyone....

Take My Eyes to Guide You Home, Coz I'm Still Here Breathing Now, Until I'm Set Free...

2009-12-23T14:17:00.003+08:00

BORED BORED >.<

Q. What will you do when you are bored?

A. go out play bike, online msn, mapling strum on my guitar and chat with her on the phone if can

Q. Where were you during 8 hrs ago?

A. at her place sleeping with her

Q. Who will you wanna meet right now?

A. Amenda and Zen Zen

Q. What are you taking now?

A. feel like calling her

Q. Who is the most irritating person?

A. people in my camp ii guess? AND NORMAN >.<

Q. Will you sign on Army?

A. HELL NO! if Police YES!

Q. Who is the person who treasure you?

A. Amenda, Zen Zen, Daddy and Mommy

Q. If 2012 is judgement day, who you wanna die with

A. anyone tat is close to me and treasure me =D

Q. What is your fav food?

A. Japanese Food and many more

Q. If Amenda leave you alone will you sad?

A. OF COZ SAD CRY SOMEMORE!!!

Q. Will Your Lungs Heal?

A. dunno, but is getting worse

Q. What is the last movie you watch with

A. Twilight New Moon with Amenda >3<

Q. Nov 16 2009, where were you?

A. Genting!

Q. Any happy moment during the trip?

A. yup, ii make new friends but sad thing is ii coz my friend alots of problems

Q. Who are those new friends and close to you?

A. Zen Zen, she very cute, cheerful, caring and friendly like a sister to me hehe =)

Q. What you gonna do after book out?

A. go find Amenda wahahaha

THE END!!!

2009-12-23T12:45:00.004+08:00

WOW! how's life today? happy, sad, angry or HYPER?!
kinda bored now becoz i'm in camp blogging. Tis morning went to Amenda's House, we had fun wor =P hehe ii love her sleeping face lots lots... den ii also fall asleep but middle of my sleep my left lung started to pain again and feeling breathless dunno what iis happening to me ii guess my condition iis getting worst ba but not as worst as last night really painful until ii wanna cry sia =(

OK let's see!
today should be half day, but dunno why end 3plus maybe becoz of the safety thingy talk WASTE TIME!!!

TO: Amenda =P
things will be just fine dun worried nth is gonna take uu away from me, WE GOT TO HOLD ON! If ii wait for uu 5yrs, uu must also wait for mii to come back =)

zhe shi wo men de yue ting/这是我们的约定

OK... will sign off from here le Miss You Lots Lots!!!
The Dark Blue Chinese Word Is From Dj.Ben

2009-12-23T02:53:00.006+08:00

WOOT BLOG BLOG!!!
today feeling not bad Amenda is Finally Back to NORMAL MODE!!! Wah really works using true LOVE POWER instead of dirty minded plan see Norman ii guess uu are in the LOSING point le... ok let's start with something else forget about tat Norman zzz...

Wah saw Uncle Ah Bi just now he was talking to us, as usual always me help him buy things nvm Amenda and I wanna quit smoking le ii tear away the CIG just now inside left 3 but after tat sending her home ii took out my VICETORY ICE inside my bag which left 15 stick in the box, ii tell mommy ii quit smoking and ii tear away the CIG in front of her and throw all out the window she smile and look at me. Feeling much better to see my mommy smile again hehe...

and ii call Benji to quit with us too...

JY LOR Amenda, Benji and Me ii can do it YOU GUYS ALSO CAN DE HEHE!!!

AS FOR NORMAN, do wad uu wan ba dirty ways always the losing way hehe...

2009-12-22T18:46:00.002+08:00

hey blogger! wow nowadays alot of things happen, ever since 4yrs relationship over tot can start a new life but everything when so wrong sigh... Amenda leave me Becos Norman brain wash her sigh, if only tat Xiao Qiang noe how to control his fucking anger den things won't happen le...
wadeva it is...

"Amenda we've got to hold on to wad we've got ' cause it doesn't make a difference if we make or not we've got each other and tat's alot for love we'll give it shot and we half way there

Wicky is waiting always waiting here... > 3 <

2009-12-22T02:41:00.002+08:00

WICKY SHOULD BE SAD NOW!!!
I know that she is now reading our post but i hope that she make her choice nicely....... haix =(

LOL... this is BEN leh not WICKY AKA EMO KIA.....

lol lo.....
AMENDA YOU KNOW GIRL LIKE HAPPY ENDING???
IF YOU KNOW THAN I STILL HAVE TO SAY....
HAPPY ENDING MEAN NOT ABOUT MONEY OR THAT GUY HANDSOME ANOT
IT MEAN HOW THE GUY MAKE YOU HAPPY AND SO LOVELY JUST LIKE YOUR MUN AND DAD =D
SO MAKE YOUR RIGHT CHIOCE ......

Dj BEN signing off......

2009-12-22T02:16:00.002+08:00

hello! blogger here to post post again... hmmm tiis time is a sad sad post le

tot everything is fine and started new life again, but i'm back to square again but never mind....

ii have fall for her sigh things went it out the wrong way and so wrong... Amenda ii love you so much but in the end i'm still losing out thanks to somebody but anyway she happy can le, just like the song Shuo Yi hmmm all ii can do now is tat hope she dun believe the wrong person... Norman is a Policeman and Wicky is a small boy, if uu are Amenda who will uu listen to?
Norman somemore her Ex bf, how to compare leh??
Wicky is a small boy how to understand they all??

anyway just wanna let Amenda know tat those past few weeks ii really enjoy my time with her.

thanks you so much for taking to lots of places and taking care of me...

2009-12-21T19:52:00.003+08:00

HELLO! tis is my new BLOG wahaha!

hmmm, today very very busy wor sigh...keep going up and down the air field ARGH SO fucking busy can't even blog wad ii wanna say...

hmmm kinda angry and jealous now dunno why maybe becoz she go out with him ba... haix anyway today will be ending late so sian lor sigh think ii go home post again ba bb =(

2009-12-21T03:07:00.008+08:00

AGAIN THIS IS BEN...... IVAN THAT SHIOK KIA NOW SINGING XIAO XIAO XIAO NIAO!!!!!

helping ivan post nia!!!!

Ivan is now very fan..... please call him or msn himm!!!!
just went out tgt eat and saw some cheebye lo.....
knn..... okok hope he happy with this blog la.....

Bored!!!!
Will She accect Him???
if YES! that cool!!
if NO! that HoT!!!
Lmao joking nia wor!!
since a long time i blogging!!!
Hope Wicky happy la!
AMENDA WATCH THIS
IVAN LOVE YOU

2009-12-21T00:34:00.000+08:00

Foooooo Yoooooooo!!!!! New Blog New Post!!!!! All Done By Ben!!!!

Now i post this picture is past liao!!!! So guan lan so xia lan !!!!!
Now New life new gal everything new!!!

love do really hurts...
but love can have fun and HAPPY ENDING just like gal always wanted
someone asked me how to be single so long like 1year plus....
i reply just that lo =D.....
single is better or in a relationship?
the someone is from IVAN CHUA.... Shhhhh!!!!